Lost for a few minutes… Log #17

Good Afternoon …

I haven’t vented since July, I locked myself out of my laptop… I am technology challenged but can type 120 WPM, however, that’s only on an actual keyboard so it’s kind of irrelevant now… Fuck 2 factor authentication… could people please just stop stealing, thanks.

I’ve spent the last couple of months rescuing dogs, what an awesome August & September…

That has come to a screeching halt since dementia Dad had a heart attack… FYI, care for people with Dementia is awful… The advice from social workers & ‘transition liaisons’ is stupid. I’ve actually been told that he needs to ‘fail’ a few times at home in order to get him bumped up to assisted living, which literally means injury to himself or injury to another person. I’ve told them he’s had outbursts at his girlfriend, he hides knives around the house because he’s paranoid, he’s lost money, like a lot… He had a heart attack caused by anemia because he didn’t feed himself and over took pain killers which some random E.R. doctor prescribed even though it’s all over his file he shouldn’t have any kind of extra strength pain killers or opioids because it was part of the issue with his 1st heart attack, but, you know, reading is tough for doctors. Here is what I can tell you…

The medical staff really is doing the best they can. In fact, they have no staff. Why, medical professionals can’t make enough money to pay the rent, as I’ve journal-ed before, money math is super tough for our government… The staff they do have are inexperienced with dementia patients & well, a lot of the staff, I wouldn’t trust to tie their own shoes, bless their hearts… I explained to multiple nurses & care aids, as did my sister, that he’s not going to the bathroom and he can’t remember when he went but he will just tell you he went…. So, what do they do? Oh, they ask him when he went, he says 5 minutes ago & they take his word for it & theeeeeen he gets so constipated when they give him a laxative finally he shits for 4 hours straight & then proceed to tell us he has an inflamed bowel……. well, no shit….

My Dad’s girlfriend decided he can’t stay with her anymore which is fair, she has her own health issues. He’d been staying there for basically the last 2 years but has his own In’law suite in my home. However, while she is deciding this & Dad is being released from the hospital, my suite has a water leak & I have to move Dad upstairs with me… My Dad has been home with me for 2 days now & doesn’t even really know where he is…

The social workers, case managers, doctors, nurses & everyone I can think of has this information, So, the next piece of advice from these people was to get him to sign a power of attorney… He failed their special memory test… twice… But somehow they determine he’s cognitive enough for certain things… Um, he can’t feed himself, or tell you where he is, but ya, get him to sign legal documents, ok… It may be my Dads own fault for not making plans in the end of life department, however, I’m not getting him to sign a legal document because well, I’m not a greasy slimy sneaky person…

Home care will be visiting today, i’m very excited…

I’m spiraling, my mind is spinning, & what the actual fuck!!

It’s a sin…